In every life there is someone who needs forgiven. There is a father or mother who made mistakes in raising us. There is a teacher who was harsh or uncaring. There is a friend who misused our friendship. There is a boss or co-worker who tried our patience and won. There is a spouse or loved one who damaged us under guise of love. There is a child who took everything we taught them, then went off and damaged themselves and others in ways we could never have seen. And there is our own worst judgment turned on ourselves. In every life there is someone to forgive.If you are someone who needs to find a way to forgive, here are best steps I’ve found (and no, it’s not simply, “I forgive you” and matter is settled. That only works for children who are two) in order to do that.
The first step to forgiveness is to ask God to help you to be willing to forgive. Forgiving someone because everyone else says you should or because you know it’s right thing to do will leave you feeling empty and angry if you try to force yourself to do so. Therefore, you must first ask God for willingness to forgive. The best way to do this is to say, “God, please soften hard places in my heart toward _________ so that I can be willing to forgive him/her.” Now, this is not a one-time and it’s done thing. It may take a few days of saying this repeatedly or it may take a few months if trauma has been damaging enough or if it was long-lasting. But that is first step—to be willing.
The second step for some may actually be first step. They may already be willing to forgive person, but just not know how. In this step person trying to forgive simply says, “Lord, help me to forgive ___________ for any and all wrongs they have done to me.” Again, this step may take some time. I have found that if you will say this every time your thoughts go to that person, sooner or later, your heart will begin to feel forgiveness.
Now many people stop there, and then wonder why later on forgiven person and circumstance surrounding that person doesn’t go away. You think, “I’ve forgiven them, so why don’t I feel better about it? Why is that still bothering me?” It’s still bothering you because you haven’t completed forgiveness process.
Sure, you’ve forgiven them, but what I’ve learned is that often there were two people in situation and you haven’t forgiven other person—you. I had a roommate in college who was like a sister to me for about 18-months. We were all-but inseparable. Then she found a boyfriend and suddenly friendship that I had invested a lot of time and emotion into changed in a way I wasn’t ready for. I was angry and hurt and afraid and lonely. She tried, but our friendship didn’t survive.
I knew I had to find a way to forgive her, and eventually I did. But I still felt horrible about way things had ended. Even after I re-established contact with her and got our friendship to a place where we both knew we were no longer angry and hurt, I still didn’t feel right about whole thing. Then, one day I heard someone say that you need to say, “I forgive myself for ever thinking I ever did anything wrong.” I forgive myself… That was part I had been missing. I had forgiven her, but I had never forgiven myself for large part I had played in whole mess.
So, I started, “I forgive myself for ever thinking I did anything wrong with ______.” You did what you knew how to do at time, and as Maya Angelou says, “You did what you knew how to do at time, and when you knew better, you did better.” Slowly over time, my guilt about situation started to dissipate until now I can look back on that experience and be grateful for good times we had instead of focusing on all junk at end.