Holy Crow! I am still awake. Amazing. It didn't always used to be like this. I could never get out of bed in High School. I could never stay awake in class, either. I never had any energy and I was depressed all
time.
In my thirties my doctor said I was Manic/depressive or Bi-polar and put me on Lithium and anti-depressants. I was till sleepy all
time and my bouts of sudden naps at inappropriate moments increased. I just couldn't accomplish anything without running out of steam. That bummed me out further. I really didn't notice any change with all
meds except for
side effects so stopped taking them. I waited for my world to cave in but nothing happened. I was exactly
same without
dry mouth, headaches and pill-popping. I just concluded that I was just your average, run-of-the-mill screw-up and I would never amount to much.
Meanwhile, I kept under-performing at my job and I lived in a state of anxiety that I would get fired. They said I had a bad attitude but I was just depressed and exhausted. It's pretty hard to be sunny and bright when you have your own black cloud raining on you. My nap attacks were frequent. I would feel my stamina draining away like someone pulled a plug in my energy sink. A couple minutes warning was all I had. Enough time to sneak into a toilet stall and take a 15 minute snooze. They probably thought I had a colon problem. Hee hee.
I lacked
energy to keep my girlfriends socially entertained so they disappeared. I crashed several cars. My memory failed frequently and my cognitive skills were mushy. So what
hell was wrong with me?
By chance I read an article about sleep disorders. I turns out I suffer from not one but two different sleep disorders. Probably because I am a Gemini:
twins.
I was bagged all
time because I could not attain deep sleep. Result: daily fatigue. Why? Because of Sleep Apnea. That's when your windpipe partially collapses when you lie down and your oxygen flow is restricted. Your brain panics and goes into survival-mode. Respiration is increased, your heart beats like crazy and you awaken gasping for air only to fall asleep immediately and
cycle resumes. In my case, this would happen 30-60 times in a night. And I was classified as a mild case! The funny thing is in
morning I thought I had an uninterrupted night's sleep.