The Family Bed: A Story in Generations

Written by Abigail Dotson


If I had been born at home, surely it would have been into a family bed. As it was, my parents brought me home fromrepparttar hospital, where I was promptly given a place aside my mother inrepparttar 111018 bed which slept us all: mom, dad, my brother and I. I nursed until I was nearly four, whenrepparttar 111019 arrival of a younger sibling forced shared privileges. I was not, as a rule, thrilled with anything that wasn’t mine alone and so gave uprepparttar 111020 breast and my place between my parents for slightly more independence onrepparttar 111021 outskirts of our small country. I slept onrepparttar 111022 edge (had my parents been a bit more intuitive, they may have recognized this as foreshadowing, and thus been more fully prepared forrepparttar 111023 journey of parenting a true Sagittarian daughter…).

By that time,repparttar 111024 eldest Dotson child had moved on and now slept in a wood framed bunk bed hand crafted by our father. In a family of five, he wasrepparttar 111025 only to sleep solo. This left me asrepparttar 111026 senior child inrepparttar 111027 family bed, a title that lent me a certain amount of privilege, and these arerepparttar 111028 days I remember most when I think back torepparttar 111029 last time I slept inrepparttar 111030 same bed with someone underrepparttar 111031 age of two.

I rememberrepparttar 111032 stories of my infancy, more fromrepparttar 111033 telling and re-telling, I am sure, than from genuine memory; countless friends and family have heard ofrepparttar 111034 night, sleep deprived and exhausted, that my mother lay me down to sleep next to my father. I slept huddled in his arms onrepparttar 111035 side ofrepparttar 111036 bed, my mother an ocean away on her end ofrepparttar 111037 king size waterbed. Lured byrepparttar 111038 scent of her leaking breasts and some clearly primal instinct, I managed, at just a few months of age, to roll over my father and acrossrepparttar 111039 broad expanse until my lips at last foundrepparttar 111040 relief of my mother’s waiting nipple. This could have been my first successful experience at rolling over. Suffice to say, mom did not sleep as anticipated, but who could deny such determination?

For years I laughed at this story, until I had a toddler of my own and understood, finally,repparttar 111041 sacrifice that lay atrepparttar 111042 heart of attachment parenting. Despiterepparttar 111043 pain of too many sleepless nights, I am hooked, just like my mother before me. I am a co-sleeper at heart, a habit brought on by genetics, it would seem. I knowrepparttar 111044 warmth of my parents’ bodies, a peace surpassed only byrepparttar 111045 warmth of own daughter’s sleeping body as she lay- covering me in bruises with impulse kicks and left hooks- sleeping next to me. A woman ofrepparttar 111046 new millennium I never thought I would stand for such abuse, and yet imagine my surprise at not only standing for it, but demanding it continue. While I can’t honestly say I loverepparttar 111047 pain, I can say I will happily put up with it. And while I am anxious forrepparttar 111048 day when she can confidently spend a night- or even an hour- asleep without me (a time to finally letrepparttar 111049 wounds begin to heal), I dreadrepparttar 111050 day she moves out of my bed and into her own. Yet another instance, I am sure, when she will be ready forrepparttar 111051 next step far before I am ready for her to be ready. I suppose I will have to get used to this.

My Father Holds Me Still

Written by Abigail Dotson


When I was younger, my room always got icy cold at night. Before I went to bed, I would crankrepparttar heat up something vicious and close allrepparttar 111017 windows tight; then I would crawl into bed and fall asleep all toasty warm. As far back as I can remember, night after night, my dad would sneak into my room after he was sure I was sleeping and open allrepparttar 111018 windows. You see, he’s from Minnesota, and he always thoughtrepparttar 111019 fresh night air was good for me. Well, sure enough, morning would come and I would wake up shivering, all my windows open to let inrepparttar 111020 wind. I would jump out from underrepparttar 111021 covers and hop acrossrepparttar 111022 wood floor, bouncing outrepparttar 111023 back door intorepparttar 111024 early morning sun and find my dad inrepparttar 111025 garage, printing. I would yell at him, frustrated that he had done it again, and he would just shrug his shoulders at me and not really say anything at all. Every night wasrepparttar 111026 same. And every morning I woke up cold and angry, although after awhile I guess I came to expect it. After awhile, I guess while I was sleeping I could feelrepparttar 111027 wind on my cheeks and hearrepparttar 111028 trees waking up...after awhile, I guess I kind of liked it, even if I didn’t know it.

When I was eighteen and moved away from home to go to school, my dad helped me move in. My first night in my dorm room I was alone. I guess I really knew I had left home when I woke up and window was still closed. It scared me. From that night on, I always kept it open.

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