Learning to say “no” appropriately is quite an initiation, often termed “having healthy boundaries.” How healthy are those “boundaries?” Defined as something that delineates a border or a limit, boundaries imply that you are on this side, while I am on
other. They are viewed as a protection. Yet, as long as I perceive a need for protection, am I not projecting attack? It reminds me of this man having constructed a barricade around his garden, to protect his carrots from being eaten by a sneaky rabbit, to only discover that he had enclosed
rabbit in his new designed fortress! What would it be like to live without boundaries, or sneaky eating rabbit inside me? The following are ten autobiographical steps to say “yes” and “no” authentically. Feel free to travel these steps with me: my story may just be your story! 1. I don’t say “no” when…
I am afraid, I am afraid, I am afraid… I am afraid she won’t like me, if I say “no” to her. I divide people between losers and winners. Adopting such perspective will inevitably make me concerned that I may lose something, be lost, and/or be viewed as a loser… That is
ultimate rejection, which is my greatest fear! I’d much rather please Aunt Adele and compromise, just to convince her that I am on her side, a winner. Anything not to be rejected!
2. I don’t say “no” when…
I am afraid, I am afraid, I am afraid… I am afraid I will end up unloved and all alone. I have to be a team player to be safe. Acceptation by my pears, reputation is what is foremost to me. My core belief is that it’s a jungle out there, and, that I would die if I were alone. Furthermore, I have
thought that my needs won’t be met unless I surround myself with people who are obligated to me. So I say “yes” to you, with
tacit agreement that, one day, you will say “yes” to me. Now we owe each other: Anything not to be alone!
3. I don’t say “no” when…
I am afraid, I am afraid, I am afraid… I am afraid to challenge
status quo. I can’t say “no” to his demand. I don’t want to make waves. Good people don’t make waves. Good people don’t make noises. They don’t cause “trouble.” They just follow
trend, and then
next trend. Conditioning is good; it gives you a feeling of safety, of knowing where you are. Then you don’t have to make a decision, it is all decided for you! I don’t want to be disappointed, nor do I want to disappoint Grandma Julie. Traditions are good. Anything not to change.
4. I don’t say “no” when…
I am afraid, I am afraid, I am afraid… I am afraid to speak my truth, and sing my song: If I start showing up, rather to be a yes man, or a no woman, which are ultimately
two sides of
same coin, then I will be looked as an heretic, an original, a loony, a rebel… I will have to leave
nest, and take on a larger domain of operation. That is way too much work! I much rather hide my truth, be a good girl, stuff my throat, thwart my expression, and do as Mommy wants, even if it kills me. Anything not to be responsible.
5. I don’t say “no” when…
I am afraid, I am afraid, I am afraid… I am afraid of how truth will change my life. I’d rather not inquire on who is speaking, who is running
show, is it
small I or
Big I, is it
ego or
heart? If I were to say “no” to her, she would be in pain, and it would be my entire fault! If I were to say “no” to him, he will be hurt for
rest of his life. If I say “no” to them, they won’t have any other opportunity ever. It’s dark in there, in those negative scripts. It’s dark and it’s cold… Anything not to Turn on
Light!