TEENAGE SEPARATION

Written by Terri Amos


"Why are you here on this planet?"

That isrepparttar question I asked my daughter Mackenzie when she was seven years old. I was shocked by her deep immediate response. She said, "So people can watch me and learn."

I asked, "Do you mean to be a teacher?"

"No," was her reply.

"Do you mean to be an example?"

"Yes," she said. "I am here to be an example. I am here so people can watch me and learn."

Those were probablyrepparttar 128838 most profound words Mackenzie has ever spoken. Like I mentioned so many times in my book, "Message Sent," she is a great teacher for me. By her example, I see and learn more about myself each and every day.

Mackenzie is almost twelve now and is separating from her dad and me. My spirit says this is normal, but my ego says, "Wait! Hold on! I miss you. You can't grow up quite so fast. I love you and don"t want to let you go."

If you have ever had children, you know how painful this separation process can be. You feel as if a part of your heart is ripping out. That's why you want to control it. But because I know that everything is a reflection to me, I have to go within and see what Mackenzie's spirit is showing me.

I imagine myself as a girl Mackenzie's age and ask her what is this sadness she is feeling. I am surprised byrepparttar 128839 answer. Terri,repparttar 128840 pre-teen within me says, "I missrepparttar 128841 little girl that I was. I am so torn. I just want to be hugged. But I can't. I have to grow up and be strong."

As I hear those words I mourn for that young girl inside of me. She had such pain separating. There was a part of her that wanted to be a cuddly little kid and then there was a side of her that felt she had to grow up. As a result, she separated fromrepparttar 128842 little inner child in every aspect of her life. She pushedrepparttar 128843 little girl she had been down so deep that she forgot her. She no longer loved and acknowledgedrepparttar 128844 little kid inside of her.

GOD IS MY GUIDE

Written by Terri Amos


'Dear God, thank you for healing my life. I open myself up to receiverepparttar love andrepparttar 128837 guidance that you give me, so that I might be an example of peace, truth and unconditional love for my family andrepparttar 128838 world around me.'

I said variations of this prayer for a very long time. I wanted my family to feel whole and I knew it had to start with me. I knew before I could love them unconditionally, I had to healrepparttar 128839 turmoil inside of me. I discovered over time that as I followed God's path and grew in my truth, it has allowed my family to grow, too.

A year-and-a-half ago I picked up a tape atrepparttar 128840 library by Deepak Chopra regardingrepparttar 128841 seven levels of consciousness. The levels start with innocence, then move on torepparttar 128842 ego, torepparttar 128843 achiever, torepparttar 128844 seeker, and on into different levels of union consciousness. My gut told merepparttar 128845 tape was for my husband, Steve, to see.

Steve watchedrepparttar 128846 tape, got very emotional and then told me he no longer wanted to be an achiever. He wanted to be a seeker of truth. He wanted to take time off and let everything go. Some might have called this a mid-life crisis...he is a FEW years older than me... but what we both knew was that he wanted to find his purpose and inner peace.

I was thrilled for about a split second until he said, "I want to let everything go. I want to sellrepparttar 128847 house."

Yikes! Be careful what you ask for. I had prayed for some time that Steve would find inner peace. I just didn't know it was going to shake up my world so much. He wanted to get rid of my home. So much for my world of peace and stability!

As always, God works in beautiful, wondrous ways. I finally got past my tears and fears and agreed that this would berepparttar 128848 best path for us to take. We sold our house without it ever going onrepparttar 128849 market, for full price I might add, and then found ourselves on an adventure that we would have never imagined.

We thought me wanted to move torepparttar 128850 country, but then found ourselves confused becauserepparttar 128851 television industry was revealing itself to me as an avenue to share my message. We decided to stay in Southern California, but had no idea where we would live. We knew we wanted to rent a home, but soon discovered it to be very difficult to find one that was big enough for our whole family, including our little Maltese. Then, out ofrepparttar 128852 blue, a realtor called us and said, "I heard you decided to stay here for awhile. I just sold a home to a man who has now decided to go abroad. It is five years old, has four bedrooms, three baths and is five blocks fromrepparttar 128853 beach. He would like a family to rent it. Would you be interested?"

Would we be interested? We couldn't believe our good fortune.

Forrepparttar 128854 next year-and-a-half we realized it wasn't just good fortune, but it was God guiding us and taking care of us. We set an intention for ourselves that we were fully surrendering to God, so that we might live forrepparttar 128855 highest good, bringing light and love intorepparttar 128856 world.

The adventure became a roller coaster ride of ups and downs. One ofrepparttar 128857 things Steve most wanted to do in his time off was to escape and spend time on our boat. It had been in Mexico for several years and his first intention was to bring it back up to Southern California. Well, wouldn't you know it, just a few hours from making its way home,repparttar 128858 boat caught on fire and sunk torepparttar 128859 bottom ofrepparttar 128860 ocean. Steve was devastated. I knew there had to be a gift.

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