Where’s Your Edge? Helaine Iris © 2003“And
day came when
risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than
risk it took to blossom.” Anais Nin
The other day my sixteen-year-old daughter came home from school practically in tears. Sensing her distress I gently inquired as to how her day was. With animated emotion, she began to tell me about
project she is working on in science class. She’s studying electricity and has to build an electric generator. She made it abundantly clear to me that she’s never felt “dumber “ in her whole life and she hates
project.
My daughter, a bright young woman, has a fairly healthy sense of self and excels in school. She’s well rounded, is a wonderful writer and generally good at math and science. Her true passion, however, lies in
creative art realm.
The challenge of building this electrical generator has pushed her to
edge of her comfort zone and she’s not a happy girl.
My friend, a talented and promising business consultant is in
middle of creating a new company for himself. He is full of inspiration and creative energy and has been gestating a very good idea for some months now. I’ve watched him approach his launch date several times only to see him go back to
drawing board to further tweak and revise his presentation.
The challenge of putting himself “out there” in
world is
edge of his comfort zone.
I am not exempt from this challenge. I’m building a coaching practice. I’ve made
bold decision to be self-employed, forgo
security of a paycheck and
benefits that go along with employment. I’d prefer to follow my dream and carve out a life that fulfills me at
deepest level.
Even though I am pleased with my success, and feel good about taking a courageous stand for my life, there are also financial realities and challenges that I must face having my own business.
When I experience
seasonal fluctuations of my client load, and find myself wondering how I am going to pay
bills for
month, I am at
edge of my comfort zone.
Financial, emotional or physical stress can be a real energy drain and ample motivation to play it safe. I don’t like being at my edge, it’s scary and unsettling. It calls up my anxiety and my old fears and doubts that I think I’ve resolved. Despite my resistance, I want to know what continues to push me forward, and creates
ability to withstand and thrive when I am pushed to my edge.