Searching for Silence in a Noisy World by Patrice Fagnant-MacArthurWhen was last time you were surrounded by silence? It seems that background noise is an ever-present reality of our world. The T.V. and radio are our constant companions. Our children play with electronic toys that beep and wail at push of a button. Our streets are full of roaring engines, tooting horns, and pounding of construction. At night, we may run a fan or have an air conditioner humming in background. We do not even sleep in silence. The sounds of nature and indeed sounds of our own mind are drowned out by constant din.
What is it about silence that makes us so uncomfortable? While we have little control over many of noises of our world, what about ones we can control? How often do we make conscious choice to turn off background noise, to pay attention to that which is within us? What is it that we are afraid we will find? It is in those all too rare moments of silence that we can truly come to know ourselves.
Only two people who have known each other a great deal can sit comfortably in silence. Among new acquaintances, we force ourselves to keep conversation going. Silence feels forced and awkward. In intimacy of an old friendship or within a marriage, however, silence can be comforting. We do not feel need to always come up with something to talk about. There is no pressure to perform. Nothing is forced. We are free to just be in presence of other.
So should it be in our relationship with God. In our prayer, our conversation with God, do we always feel need to be talking? Do we ever stop to listen? God, who loves us and knows us more intimately than any human ever could, exists within us and invites us to just be in presence of divine. Obviously, conversation with God and being with God is different from our human relationships. In our interpersonal encounters, we can see person with whom we are conversing, we can hear their voice on telephone, or read an email from a friend. With God, we need to trust that He is always there with us, whether we sense Him or not. It is up to us to open ourselves to possibility of experiencing God. In silence, we can more fully allow ourselves to be open to that possibility.