I've had a busy couple of weeks. I updated my website, designed one for a client, began work on another site of my own, edited an eBook, launched a chapter of a local Moms group, put together an article syndicate... and came down with flu.Once again, I tried to cram too many projects into too little time. I skipped meals, slept poorly and paid price with three days in bed. At my age, you would think I'd know better.
And I do know better. Back in bad old days when I was an employee, I was able to pace myself. There were others with whom I could share tasks. There were scheduled lunch breaks. There was that guaranteed weekly paycheck. Sometimes it sounds like heaven on earth.
But in actuality, my old job was a long way from Eden, especially after my daughter was born. I spent my days obsessed with time -- mentally calculating point when L.A. traffic would make it impossible to get from office to our daycare provider before closing. And all while, what I really longed to do was be at home and watch my little girl grow.
The idea of working at home was very appealing, if only for stress relief.
Two years later, I have a growing home business -- but surprise! I'm still playing Beat Clock - only now running against Megan's preschool schedule... and I'm just as stressed now as I was then.
"How can that be?" asks my incredulous husband.
For one thing, it's a different kind of stress.
Experts list money problems and uncertainty among things that cause anxiety in people, and if you really need to net x-amount of dollars from your home business, you can expect to experience both. Losing comfort of that weekly paycheck is a major reason more people don't choose to be entrepreneurs, and I can assure you they have a point. I begin each month by staring at my revenue spreadsheet, wondering if this will be one when nothing comes in. Then, when I've made some entries and it starts looking sort of good, I worry that pace won't keep up -- or that next month will be a dud.
However, as nerve-wracking as that can be, if you feel trapped in a situation you hate (as I was in my former job), feelings of helplessness can set in... and that's not only stressful, but can plummet you into depression.