All these thoughts raced through my mind as I signed up for formation retreat for facilitators. The challenge - to become a facilitator for coming bible study program.

The formation retreat was to find out answers for myself. Was I ready for this ministry or others?

I knew that it was not going to be easy. I had already sacrificed so much of my time as a participant for this 34-week study program that required me to read a few chapters of bible everyday, and to attend 3-hour meetings every week. And to come for meetings no matter whether it rains or not, in sickness or in health. A commitment that requires me to forego watching my favorite TV shows, and missing out on vacations and tours with my family.

However, I did manage to complete whole journey of 34 weeks as a participant! That was quite an achievement.

I had been doing a bit of serving in church - as a warden, sharing in community fellowship meetings and doing simple services which undoubtedly were helpful to community. But this Discipleship program was so different.

It focused on biblical themes each week and was very well structured. After participating and sharing my thoughts, joys, sadness, and challenges for 34 weeks together with strangers, I found friendship that was genuine, intimate and very real. I could see people's lives being transformed.

While I was working at sea, I used to marvel at how ministers from Mission to Seamen, Flying Angels, Stella Maris and other groups served seamen who came in from around world. I really enjoyed what they had to offer, although at that time I did not give them much thought. I was not even a Christian then.