Journaling time today was a bit out of
ordinary. I knew something was up when I felt an urge to use write in my journal using bold red ink. I honestly had no idea why I felt an inclination to use red. I never use red. My journal is filled mostly with inks of a soft pink, violet or green.But today - red. Hmmmm.... When I journal, I usually let my mind go and write whatever comes to mind, regardless of whether it makes sense. Usually it's a few thoughts about something in
past, or something I need to get done in future. But today, we got right down to business. It was as if my hand were on auto-pilot, and my central processing unit was barking out orders. The first line went "GOAL SETTING AND GOAL GETTING MUST BE OUR MAIN GOAL." The rich, red letters mesmerized my eyes. Something clicked. A dialogue was forthcoming. A dialogue between my task oriented self and my procrastination oriented self. "Task" was trying to get some cooperation. "Procrastination" was up to its usual antics. The dialogue went something like this...
Procrastination: But what do you mean we need to do some goal setting? We've done a lot of stuff lately?! I need a break!
Task: Yes, we've done "stuff." How much of that stuff relates to our life goals? For example, that big proposal we keep talking about. If we're to get anywhere with it, we've got to start.
Procrastination: Oh, come on. The proposal can wait. I'll get that done in no time. You take a break and let me handle things. Before I get to that proposal though, I need to find where I've put a ton of my papers, files, addresses I need in order to get started. Yikes, I need to do all sorts of stuff. And before I can get to that, my desk needs to get cleared off. Oh yeah, and
kitchen sure could use a cleaning, and I need to pick out this year's Christmas cards, and...
Task: The household stuff will wait, and you know you have no plans to attack
kitchen anyway. It's an excuse. And, your desk is fine. We did a quick once-over yesterday. How much clearer does it have to get? We need to at least start. Any other excuses?
Procrastination: Well, I need to block out a big chunk of time. That will be impossible. You know how busy we are these days.
Task: Block out an hour.
Procrastination: We need more than an hour and we don't have it.
Task: Start out with an hour. Block it out on your calendar.
Procrastination: But...
Task: Now.
Procrastination: Alright. There. Saturday morning, 9:00 am. Happy?
Task: Not yet. What's
task we're going to work on.
Procrastination: The project proposal.