Have You Reached Your Full Human Potential? by Lady Camelot Have you reached your full human potential? By far, too many souls have lived their lives wandering aimlessly about in hopeless despair. Each day, people awaken to a new day but dwell on
same problems from days, months, even years before. Worry and anguish seem to top lists of those constant procrastinators and apprehensive individuals who would rather give up on life than find positive it has to offer us all.
I present a good example of "full human potential:" Over 3 years ago, I found myself in a very harmful situation. Not only was my life at stake, but my mentality, emotional sense and overall well-being was on brink of major catastrophic malalignment. Here I sat -- an emotionless wasteland filled with destructive thought patterns. Not only was my rational effected, but my physical health was at a total loss. Bound to a wheelchair, I was instructed to take a wide spectrum of prescription drugs that were going to "help" me.
Day by day, I had to take pills that would possibly spark my nerves to get me walking again; pills that would reduce muscle spasms; pills that would "reroute" nerve signals; pills that would line my stomach from all of other pills; "happy" pills that helped for my "depression;" pills that helped calm my nerves; pills that stopped any seizures; pills that helped for fluid retention; pills that stopped my nausea from all other pills....the list was endless.
I had to literally have people call me to remind me of which pills I had to take next, or I'd forget to either take them or take too many of them. Most of time, I was a rolling zombie. I couldn't sleep at night because of restless leg syndrome. I couldn't sleep during day because I was afraid I wouldn't wake up.
Beside injury that left me permanently physically impaired, my finances were in total shambles. I could no longer work labored jobs I was used to doing. This was and still is no longer an option for me. Instead of freely driving whenever I want to, I always have to let someone know when I'm going and where I'm going...just in case my legs or arms decide to go out on me. My left eye has recently been effected by my nerve damage so when I peer at a computer screen or a familiar face, I have to focus with my right eye; as double vision has become a recurring event in my life. My back and buttocks tend to sporadically get hit with shockwaves of electrical, spine tingling numbness. When that happens, I can count on one or both of my legs quitting on me. And it happens in some of worst of places too. I can go shopping at local grocery store and viola -- my leg simply stops working. Or better still, try going to Sunday mass and suddenly I'm holding on to aisle pews and railings because one or both legs decided they weren't going to cooperate that day.
People will ask me, "how can you live like that?" That's simple. I've learned to live to my fullest human potential. No, I can't do all things I used to do. But instead of focusing on all things that I "can't" do, I refocused my thinking on things that I "CAN" do.
A little dog taught me a valuable lesson in life. We had our beloved "Bell" for nearly 5 years when she suddenly died of amyloidosis. (An inherited disease) It was right after she died that I experienced my first episode of paralysis. This came shortly after our roof leaked and destroyed all of our entertainment components in our built-in wall unit, and after I lost my means of employment. What a time!
