For past several years I have struggled with getting (and staying) fit. Ok I admit it, struggle has been longer than just a few years. As a kid, instead of playing nicely with girls, I fought with neighborhood boys. I attempted to join their fun and received new scars weekly in bloody games of soccer. I was always last one picked to play on kickball team and, as catcher of my 5th grade softball team, I pummeled pitcher in head with a fast ball. Uncoordinated in team sports, I succeeded only at baton twirling which was fun but I barely broke a sweat. After failures in group sports I thought I’d try running so, a few years ago I attempted to train for a half marathon. I ended up limping home in tears and thought I’d never exercise again. (I couldn’t even MOVE after that, much less exercise!)Over years I’ve used walking as a way of getting out of house, of ‘warming up’ for more vigorous exercise and just to hang out with friends. This year, walking has turned into much more for me. Walking allows me to integrate mind, body, and spirit in a way that I’ve not experienced before. Athletes speak of being “in zone.” I see that I too am an athlete and that walking can be vigorous and can provide my body with movement it craves. Walking has allowed me to reclaim fitness goals that I had given up on. I think I’ve finally found something that I can be good at and stick with long term!
“Movement in body brings movement in mind. It is a natural alchemy. So many of us seek this kind of movement in our lives, a fusion of being and doing.”— Carolyn Scott Kortge from her book, The Spirited Walker
These days, our lives are set at an incredibly frantic pace. We have so much on our plates that we fear we'll never get everything done, and we wonder when we'll find time to do those things that bring us pleasure. Even when world seems to be spinning out of control, walking can restore our sense of inner peace. Time seems to expand, giving us a chance to slow down, to relax, to appreciate ourselves and our lives.
Even when we are 'just going out for a walk', we are hardly ever just walking. We carry our mind around with us when we walk, so we are usually absorbed in our own thoughts. I have come to see that sole work of walking has turned into soul work. I have even nicknamed some of my walks with particularly insightful friends ‘walk and talks’ where we process life together and use walking as a metaphor for moving forward in life.
And then there’s walking alone which frees us up for some internal dialogue. I’ve learned to turn off cell phone, take off headphones and stop drowning out natural world. When I allow myself to hear my own thoughts and resolve any internal conflicts, I am at peace in sanctuary of my mind. Moving meditation, or spiritual walking is a wonderful way of grounding ourselves in our own presence.
"Above all, do not lose your desire to walk. I have walked myself into my best thoughts, and I know of no thought so burdensome that one cannot walk away from it. If one just keeps on walking, everything will be all right." Soren Kierkegaard