Don't Let Your Balloon POP!

Written by Ellen M. DuBois

I've come torepparttar conclusion that it's okay to be "not fine."

When people ask me how I'm doing lately, I don't rattle off a list of complaints and observations, sad feelings and grievances - as a matter of fact, I just might say, "I'm okay." However, I admit that within myself things are NOT fine and try to work throughrepparttar 127050 feelings that creates.

I don't need to share with others all ofrepparttar 127051 time. It's good to vent to a friend and I don't discount that. But, I've learned that I'd better vent with myself and acknowledge my feelings or I, like a balloon with too much air, will POP.

Embracerepparttar 127052 good andrepparttar 127053 not so good in your life. Don't run from it or try to bury it.

By doing this; by saying to myself that I am NOT fine right now, I can work through my feelings more easily.

How do I do it? It's taken me while to figure it out and I don't have allrepparttar 127054 answers. But, 'self allowance' is very important.

I'm not advocating DWELLING in your problems. I'm suggesting that you allow yourself to FEEL. The world isn't always sunshine and smiles and if you try to force yourself into that very high, unrealistic expectation, you'll eventually POP!

I've done it, so I know.

You've got to let some air out of your balloon.

Giverepparttar 127055 air to God.

So, I acknowledge and embrace these parts of myself right now. I allow myself to feel hurt and cry. I turn to God for help and guidance and I ask for more strength.

Here are some examples:

My heart is ripped apart overrepparttar 127056 fact that my fiance's Dad has just been diagnosed with cancer. I HATE being inrepparttar 127057 hospital seeing him suffer. I DETESTrepparttar 127058 fear that I feel and see and smell. I want to fall apart when I seerepparttar 127059 pain in my fiance eyes. I am NOT okay with this. It hurts, and it hurts a lot. I cannot always berepparttar 127060 pillar of strength I have expected myself to be. I lose it sometimes and I am finally saying to myself that it's okay to do that. I ask God to help me. I need His strength so that I can be strong.

If I don't, my balloon will pop.

I can't always 'be there' without replenishing my resources. I don't have unlimited strength. I need time alone to embrace myself and my needs. I have to re-charge my batteries so that I CAN be there for others. I cannot do it alone. I am not meant to berepparttar 127061 'Energizer Bunny' because I am human.

It DOES get to me when I see a patient in a hospital being mistreated and I DO CARE and I WILL do something about it no matter what anyone else says. Example: I saw a man being wheeled by one nurse, whilerepparttar 127062 other tagged behind with his I.V. The nurse withrepparttar 127063 I.V. stopped andrepparttar 127064 other kept going. Obviously this resulted in a lot of discomfort forrepparttar 127065 patient asrepparttar 127066 lines got tangled around his neck. He had to say, "Hey, what are you doing?" The nurses laughed. I had to let air out of my balloon. It was wrong. I couldn't keep still and silently watch this. The man's pillow fell torepparttar 127067 floor andrepparttar 127068 nurses were too busy laughing to realizerepparttar 127069 patient was struggling to get comfortable. Finally, one of them sawrepparttar 127070 pillow and plunked it BESIDE his head, not under it. They didn't CARE and that bothered me. My balloon was filling fast. How did I let some air out? I took action. I did what I knew was right in my gut. I walked up behindrepparttar 127071 man and said, while grabbing his pillow, "Do you need help with this?"

Fear is Faith Inverted

Written by Ellen M. DuBois

The first thing to come to mind at this moment is this saying: Fear is Faith inverted. I think there's a lot of truth to that.

I have a lot of faith and it's carried me through some ofrepparttar rockiest times of my life. But, I'm human and I feel, cut, bleed and cry likerepparttar 127049 rest of us. And, no matter how much faith I have, there are those moments when I simply "lose it" and am scared out of my mind. It feels like all my faith is gone.

Thank God that after these moments, I senserepparttar 127050 gentle hand of God calming me down and I know that everything is going to work out…somehow.

But, why can't I just have faith allrepparttar 127051 time and avoid those moments where I can't give my life to God completely? Why do I sometimes get paralyzed with fear?

I don't know. I guess it's because I just haven't learned to do it yet. I wonder if anyone ever can? Are there people out there who are so confident and full of faith that they never become fearful?

I'm not one of them.

The other day we found out that a family member has cancer. At least that'srepparttar 127052 first callrepparttar 127053 doctor who didrepparttar 127054 examination made. As far as I am concerned,repparttar 127055 jury is still out untilrepparttar 127056 biopsy results come in.

I prayed and prayed and am still praying. I am visualizingrepparttar 127057 body healing itself throughrepparttar 127058 light of Christ and I am boldly asking for a miracle. Why not? I haverepparttar 127059 right to, just like anyone else. The thing about miracles is this: you have to believe in them for them to happen. I do, and I am not afraid to ask for one because I've gotten overrepparttar 127060 "I don't deserve to ask for one" stage of my life. God wants me to ask, He wants to give and He wants me to believe that He can and will help. So, I asked for one.

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