DepressionWritten by Robert Bruce Baird
The 'experts' have tried to evaluate me as a sufferer of this but found no such evidence or behavior. The same was true for all other mental or medical conditions, so they think 'witch' covers my condition in life; because I refuse to participate in materially managed environment any more. We will not explore horrors of current forms of Inquisition in great detail in this book as it relates to me. That would definitely be too serious and intense, as I would explain society's role in tortures such as I witness all around me every day. I have been thwarted in devious gambits by those who have something even worse than strait-jacket as we have seen Drs Breggin and Cohen describe in 'Science'. They call it (appropriately) 'pharmacological lobotomies'. ECT is even more disgusting and joins Ritalin in a campaign which social forces are developing in this control paradigm. It seems relevant to point out enough of matter of my experience so that you will know you are getting it pretty close to what they say when they use phrase 'the horse’s mouth'. Even pharmacological and psychiatric conglomerate acknowledges physical elements of depression. Some are cluing in to nutrition and massage or simple caring. The effects of education and alienation are massive, but bad parenting and lack of enabling nutritive support in early life establish character and behavior traits that stubbornly resist real therapeutic methods. These obsessions often are far too time-consuming for high-paid 'professionals' to offer assistance - so we just drug and deceive! This medical model as some call it makes a great deal of money and keeps public at large thinking something humane is going on in life of care-givers and victims of a society without true spiritual awareness and far too little compassion. The buzz words and catchy phrases like ‘informed consent’ are not anything more than deceit, as they still give lobotomies. In one case they did it without informing person who just died in 2005. Francis Mark Mondimore writes a book called 'Depression, The Mood Disease' updated in 1993 by Johns Hopkins University that presents lies of this machine that Ivan Illich (in 'Limits To Medicine') identified as ‘mechanistic and over-professionalized' in mid 70s.Here is overstatement of century from its inside flap: "The revised 'Depression, Mood Disease' tells readers exactly what they need to know about causes, symptoms, and treatment of depression: *How antidepressant drugs were discovered, how they work, and with what side effects. {I'm biting my tongue!} *What Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) and panic attacks are, and how they are treated. *How electro-convulsive therapy has changed for better--and why it now works for up to 90% of those treated. {And all professions involved in continuing to provide this fearsome horror that is necessary to repeat as it continues frying brain cells. Now randomly due to a drug cocktail, so that people's libido and zest is burned out too.} *How special problems of depression in children and older persons are handled. *How to deal with a depressed friend or family member. *How such disorders as hormonal imbalance and even lead poisoning can 'mimic' symptoms of depression. *Why depression is sometimes misdiagnosed as 'PMS', drug abuse, or Alzheimer's disease..." (2) The future holds promises and terrors galore in application of 'easy' answers like drugs developed for specific genetic make-ups and nanites to monitor and deliver targeted drugs or shocks to system in order to make us behave as we should. The ever-increasing 'big brother' that allows growth industries associated with management of people will lead to full employment if we allow it to continue down current path. There will only be one benefit as unemployable grow in number and employment roles show full employment. The statistics will show economy is productive and there is little unemployment or reason to worry about an economic depression. That is end of excerpt from my encyclopedia. I will be including some other more recent writings as we proceed. I had returned from Caribbean and a failed business experience in Mexico and Belize in month of March 1998. My last wife and I had purchased a yacht, which we hoped to be able to build a party boat/tourist business around. My wife had named boat 'Champagne Dreams' after motto of Robin Leach's show 'The Rich and Famous'. It was her idea that we put a Jacuzzi on front deck, of this 47 foot fiberglass yacht that we purchased in Fort Lauderdale, and our partner (Captain Crunch) Jerry had taken with me to Cancun. His nickname had not been established until we were leaving Key West. He destroyed fueling station of marina while hitting three other boats. We were still married though it was never a real marriage as most people think of it. The relationship was already complicated with another man named David.
| | TO JOURNAL OR NOT TO JOURNAL THAT IS THE QUESTIONWritten by Kay L. Schlagel
I’m sure that at one time or another every one of us has been told to journal. “What is so important about journaling?” you may ask. “I’ve already had to live with it going over and over in my head, why would I want to write it down?” You’ve answered your own question. A lot of us have found that keeping a journal is a way of stopping cycle of a memory or an “old tape” going round and round in your head giving itself more and more importance through pure repetition is by writing it down. Sometimes just act of writing it down gives us a sense of relief of having documented “event” thus eliminating need to continuously relive it. It also is a way of looking at things from a bit more of an objective view. I have written things in a fit of misery that at time seemed to me a very relevant and impending problem. I then went back to entry, not even a full 24 hours later to see that I had 1) over-reacted to situation. 2) The situation was not as charged with emotion as I had previously seen it. 3) I was over-reacting due to some old tape from my childhood playing itself back in my head in response to a stimulus triggered by situation. Other wise I was freaking out over nothing. It was also a way of getting out of my system angry letters that I needed to write but would not be in my best interest to send, or couldn’t send if I wanted to. One of ways I was able to confront my primary abuser that had died when I was 12 was through my journal. Like with any illness it is a great way of spotting patterns of deterioration in your symptoms. When I was getting back an old memory that was coming back in bits and pieces, I found journaling helped me fill in pieces much faster and more accurately than relying only on my memory. You can also track cycles of moods that correspond to hormonal cycles, anniversary dates, or trigger events that cause certain behaviors of self-destruction. Types of journals vary as much as people that keep them. You decide what type of journal works best for you. Some use poetry, art, dream journals, daily journals, crises journals, or even journals for rage and anger letters. For some these journals will remain personal and private mementos for rest of their lives and they will leave instructions in their wills what is to be done with them upon their death. For others, they will eventually get to a point in their healing that they are ready to let go of these memories, anger, etc. and may use a ritual such as burning or shredding them in a way that allows them to let go of journals contents.
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