As I sat down to write this article I asked little Terri,
child inside of me who represents my heart, what she wanted to write about. I saw her in my mind. She started laughing, wiggling, and dancing around
room, chanting "Dancing, dancing, dancing down
road called life." A big grin came across my face as I watched her in my mind's eye. "What is
message you're trying to tell me?" I asked her.
"Life is so much more fun when you surrender to God," was her answer.
Little Terri is now jumping around on my bed, dancing her heart out. I am tickled to see her so happy. She says, "I just wanna have fun, fun, fun! I just wanna play, play, play! I just wanna be, be, be!"
I ask her, "Well, do you feel as if you are getting enough of these things?"
"Yes! Yes!" she screams and then topples down on my bed laughing hysterically.
After reading this you might feel as if I need to be institutionalized. Some days you are probably right. However, I've never experienced so much laughter and joy in my life as I feel now and it's because of my relationship with this child. She is my connection to God. When I talk to her, cuddle and play with her, and act upon
messages she gives me, I feel so much love.
By staying connected to this little child and by honoring and loving her, I am living my life from God's love in my heart, not from my head. My head kept me in fear and pain for much of my life. That's because I constantly played mental games with myself. Because of those games,
laughter died within me. But now my heart is filled with laughter. That's because little Terri is alive and well inside of me. Don't get me wrong, there are days when I go back to my old ways of trying to control everything around me. But, boy, when I do, little Terri sure gives me a kick in
rump! I can always tell when I've lost my connection to her and moved from my heart back into my head. That's when she throws a fit. I'll feel my throat tightening and I'll get all jittery. Sometimes I feel weepy, usually because she's feeling sad and alone. But as soon as I acknowledge her and ask her what is bothering her, she calms down. That's when I hear her messages. As I act upon them, my life flows with freedom and ease.