The young mother took her fever-ridden child to hospital in hopes that something could be done to save her precious child. The mother was told that there was little that could be done. The fever was much too high for child to survive. Ice water and alcohol rubs could not control fever. A few hours later, mother was told that her beloved daughter, her first and only child, had died.

Within minutes, a frantic doctor ran back into waiting room to tell young mother that her child had come back to life!

Before evening sun set, child was sitting up in her crib playing with her dolly as if nothing out of ordinary had happened. The fever was gone. The mottled extremities were pink with health. The child giggled shyly as parade of doctors and nurses came in to see her. They brought more toys and stuffed animals than little crib could hold. They asked questions like, “What’s your dolly’s name?” They marveled at bright eyes and quick responses of child that surely should have been brain damaged.

My name is RobinRenee, and I was that little girl. I remember nothing about event. Nor do I remember when I realized that if I opened my eyes just as I was drifting off to sleep, my room would become an Alice in Wonderland delight.

I learned to fly to ceiling turning flips in ether like a trapeze artist. I looked down on my body as it lay sleeping. I stretched perimeters of my room until it felt smooth to me. I let it curl in upon itself like a nautilus shell. I walked on my “nautilus shell” room leaving footprints as if it were wet sand. Then room would quickly unwind, spinning me along with it until I ended up in far corner of ceiling. This dizzying ride was one of my favorite games.

This greater part of our entity does not spend all of its time looking in on everything we do. It has other things to do. (And other parts of itself in physicality to look in on.) From time to time, greater part of our entity will peer into our reality to get a reading on how we are doing. This only takes a split second. Our entity can read our vibrations in that split second and can tell how far we've evolved. It knows instantly if we are following our agreed upon path, and it gets a reading of how much karmic energy we still hold unresolved. It gets a reading on how we feel about ourselves, and then it logs that information into autopilot. It then puts us on autopilot, at those settings, and then goes about its other business.

This separation from our whole entities was necessary in order for us to experience physicality and evolve a physical vehicle capable of holding a whole entity. The separation caused a lot of problems for us, though, in fact, most of our problems have this separation as a root cause. All of us retain a deep hidden memory of when entity was ALL ONE, and, although this memory is vague, it creates a deep longing to reunite with greater part of entity. We crave to touch our entity, we long to be whole. But entity only checks in every so often, so it is up to us to get in touch with our entity.

How do we do that? There are two ways: Through joy or through crisis.

To grab entity's attention, we have to create a vibration that is strong enough to over-ride autopilot, setting off an alarm that causes entity to come in and see what's up. You see, even though we may be on autopilot, we have free will. The autopilot is just a default consciousness that we all are in when we are not using our free will. With our free will we can create that necessary intense vibration that gets entity's attention. On both ends of vibration spectrum there are energies intense enough to get entity's attention. On one end there is joy, and on other end is crisis, catastrophe, cataclysm, and all those c words.