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I felt as if I was in a trance. Time went by, but I don’t know how much. I just stood there. I could still perceive objects around me, but it seemed that they were far away. It was as if I was looking into realm I was in, but actually I was now in another. I began to see most beautiful garden filled with fruit trees, and magnificent flowers. The sun was so bright, but I could look into it. It didn’t hurt my eyes to gaze at it. My body started to feel warm, but it was a pleasant feeling. I felt as if I was floating, and I let myself go. The thought came to my mind that I was dying within six months, so I had nothing to lose by surrendering myself to this feeling.
I came to a lake that was color of sapphire. It was calm and serene, as I watched it flow of waves ripple before me. There was no one else here, not even an animal. It was only nature portraying itself to me. I sat down on grass that was as soft as cotton, and just watched water. As I did this thoughts came to my mind of my life. I saw how I treated my neighbor other day. It was not very hospitable of me. I saw that I had so much bitterness in my heart for things that happened in my life. I then saw my face in water for it had become transparent like a mirror. I could see this ugly scowl on my face, and thought to myself how grotesque I looked.
As I saw these things I began to experience great pain in my body. It was excruciating. I held my stomach as that was where most of pain seemed to be coming from. I thought of cancer in my body at that moment, and how it was ravishing my insides. Attacking every organ of my reproductive system, and there was nothing I could do about it. I could get treatments, chemotherapy, or even surgery, and hope that it would solve problem; but I had no means for any of them. Now I felt emotion of anger well up in me. I felt betrayed and abandoned by God. How could He allow this to happen to me? Didn’t He see all my good deeds that I have done? Does He not know that I am an active member in my community? This is not supposed to happen to people like me, but to those who are mean and never think to say a kind word to another person. That wasn’t me!
It was then for first time in my life I heard God speak to me. Don’t ask me how I know it was Him. I just knew that it was. He told me that what was occurring on inside of me was due to things I had been doing on outside. For years He had been calling me, pleading with me to come to Him, but I refused. Now I was alone, and there was no one I really trusted. He wanted me to trust Him. This was my only hope for restoration. He told me I had this type of cancer because it involved my reproductive system. This is how a child is brought forth, and when there is any malfunction in that area, it is impossible to conceive. He showed me how my bitter thoughts had gone unnoticed for so long. They had become a part of my being, and was now producing cancerous thoughts in my mind. I could no longer produce or even conceive positive thoughts about myself, let alone for someone else. This was reason for distrust.
He was more concerned with mental cancer that was ravishing my mind than He was about physical cancer. It was at that moment I broke down and cried. There were tears that I didn’t realize I had in me. It was like a dam opening up, a fountain overflowing, a pipe bursting. My insides began to quake, and I screamed at top of my lungs, “forgive me, God.”
Suddenly, there was a bright light, and then I passed out. When I came to, I felt a warm sensation in my belly. It felt as if there were hands inside my belly moving. It was as if someone was performing surgery on me right then and there. I then recognized that I was back in my living room lying on floor. Just then door opened and my kids came in. They came over and helped me up onto couch. They were concerned that I was lying on floor, and asked me what happened. I relayed as much as I could to them, but they only stared at me bewildering. I remembered last words I said to them before my family showed up at door. “I am healed of cancer!” I knew it with all my heart and being. When I let go of all those negative emotions that were eating away at me for 20 years, a miracle took place in my body.
That day a miraculous feat was performed in my consciousness that forever changed my way of thinking. It changed whole course of my life. It was another chance to be woman that I was destined to be. I am grateful for another chance at life and vowed that I would not waste one minute of it. It was confirmed by doctors that a miracle was truly performed in me. They too have to a greater reverence for unknown. May we all come to place of surrender, and know that joy of true reality of life is within us.
She is founder of Beyond the Veil Newsletter distributed around the world, also Founder of Man's Restored Image Ministries Inc.. She is an ordained minister with 18 years of experience in spiritual studies. Ms. Minatti’s spiritual journey directed her to minister to basketball legend/entrepreneur Michael Jordan. She has a Bachelor's Degree in Psychology, and a licensed Fitness/Nutrition Specialist. www.mansrestoredimage.org