Post Traumatic Stress and Addiction

Written by Ted W.


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I left Tarzana as soon as I could . I tried to stay clean but could not. Everyone believed I was hopeless. I returned to CRC for another year. During that time I attended both AA and NA. For me resolving all this has taken a long time and a seemingly endless series of realizations,many painful. Even when I rememberedrepparttar abuse I was not conscious ofrepparttar 126532 feelings of hatred. On a conscious level I experienced an attraction to women like my mother.This “programming” caused me untold misery. This phenomenon of repression is not unknown to psychiatry.Although during my time in treatment programs I learned nothing of this. Alcoholics Anonymous does make this statement: There are those too with grave mental and emotional problems. Some of these do recover if they haverepparttar 126533 capacity to be honest.-Chapter 5,The Big Book. This is as close as I can find in Recovery type literature referring to problems like mine.To this day it amazes me that I could walk around for 45 years with feelings of hatred and not be conscious of them. And it took over 20 years of being off drugs forrepparttar 126534 hatred to surface. A very good spiritual counselor advised me to confront my mother with what she had done. I did confront her withrepparttar 126535 abuse and when I did I was surprised to find feelings of resentment surfacing. Although I had not yet truly forgiven my mother, she broke down into tears when confronted. “ I hope this wasn’trepparttar 126536 reason you were on drugs,” she told me. And her cruelty wasrepparttar 126537 reason. Nowrepparttar 126538 reader may be thinking , “Maybe that’s true of you, but not everybody was abused by their mother”. But my experience in recovery (28 years) is that most alcoholics or drug addicts have been traumatized.I suggest thatrepparttar 126539 thing that they all have in common is that they have been corrupted by their parents or parent substitutes to hate. And perhaps all this suggests whatrepparttar 126540 real cure for all this is. Is it not forgiveness for those who have harmed us, realizing that they too were once innocent children who were equally traumatized? It is difficult for me to explain howrepparttar 126541 mystery of forgiveness happened to me. Afterrepparttar 126542 feelings of hatred surfaced in my life, I did not know how to deal with them. I remember driving around alone in my car cursing my mother out inrepparttar 126543 hopes that somehow that would eventually relieve me ofrepparttar 126544 hate.. Another day I had a counseling session with a minister and confessed many of my sins includingrepparttar 126545 hate. Afterwards, I felt clean.The traumas no longer seemed important..Now, is it any surprise to anyone that forgiveness isrepparttar 126546 means by which childhood post-traumatic stress is cured along with allrepparttar 126547 myriad of problems (including addiction and alcoholism) which grow out of it. After all, what could be more Christian or Spiritual than that?. *The Consequences of Child Maltreatment: A Reference Guide for Health Practitioners,Health Canada



Ted W. is a long time member of Alcholics Anonymous and he write on recovery related issues at http://Christianrecovery.blogspot.com


How to Feel Safety, Not Terror

Written by Paul Griffitts


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'Of old' is also a frequent translation, andrepparttar words of Habakkuk 1: 12 give a similar thought. '[Art] thou not from everlasting, O LORD my God, mine Holy One? We shall not die. O LORD, thou hast ordained them for judgment; and, O mighty God, thou hast established them for correction.'

You should not only remember thatrepparttar 126531 'eternal' God is 'from of old', for this of itself would not necessarily prove that He would be a refuge, but also thatrepparttar 126532 word carries with itrepparttar 126533 idea of 'being beforehand with anything', 'anticipatingrepparttar 126534 demand' and providing for it.

As withrepparttar 126535 word 'eternal', so withrepparttar 126536 word 'refuge', it represents a number of ideas. In Deuteronomy 33:27,repparttar 126537 word is meonah, from a root meaning 'to dwell' .

Deut. 33:27 'The eternal (qadam) God [is thy] refuge (meonah), and underneath [are]repparttar 126538 everlasting arms: and he shall thrust outrepparttar 126539 enemy from before thee; and shall say, Destroy [them].'

This refuge is, therefore, a dwelling place. The same word is used forrepparttar 126540 'dwelling place' of God Himself (Psa. 76:2), and forrepparttar 126541 'dens' of wild beasts (Psa. 104:22). In either case,repparttar 126542 meaning isrepparttar 126543 same. It is a place that provides protection, and where one may feel secure.

The refuge provided forrepparttar 126544 people of God is not to be thought of in terms of concrete or steel, for followingrepparttar 126545 opening statement of Deuteronomy 33:27 we read: 'And underneath arerepparttar 126546 everlasting arms'. The word 'arms' may have two different meanings, but there is no confusion in Deuteronomy 33:27.

The 'everlasting arms' refer, not to weapons but torepparttar 126547 arms ofrepparttar 126548 Lord, once 'stretched out' to deliver Israel (Deut 4:34; 5: 15; 7:19; 9:29; 11:2; 26:8), and now stretched out in loving support, so thatrepparttar 126549 tormented believer, forgetting all terrors and threats, looking not for cold and stark steel or damp and musky concrete, sinks into peaceful and secure rest inrepparttar 126550 arms ofrepparttar 126551 God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,repparttar 126552 God Who is beforehand is thy refuge.



Paul Griffitts a Bibical Researcher for over 30 years Currently Paul is the Editor of The Good News Letter for Believer.com Click here for Free eBook Two Natures in the Child of God


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