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After seeing a few, reputable Neurologists, I was additionally diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis (TM) and a 'bulging disc' (herniated disc). This explained why I had been encountering all these unrelated physical problems.
Giving Up
I guess when I first sat in my wheelchair, I instinctively gave in to my physical condition. Why bother living anymore, I thought. I couldn't function properly and felt like a complete invalid. How was I going to make my household payments? How was I going to care for my two, then elementary schoolers? How was I even going to live? While all these thoughts ran through my mind, I was becoming an emotional wreck.
Because of my health, I was taking so many medicines that I couldn't tell if I was coming or going. I would take one medicine for this, one for that, one to counteract
effects of another, and another to counteract
effects of a different one...and so on. And thanks to all of these wonderful conventional medicines, I returned to
hospital because one of them nearly killed me. It was then that I knew I had to find a different way.
Starting Over
Going against medical advisement, I literally stopped all of my prescribed medicines at once. I became acquainted with
International Disability Coalition and got into band, strengthening excercises and virtually re-taught myself how to walk - without
help of any medical professional. I also incorporated a 'mind-over-matter' attitude that I believe, enabled me to step out of
wheelchair and back into life.
It's been about 3 years now, and I still live daily with back, neck, shoulder and sciatic nerve pain. I sporadically suffer relapses where I can't walk, or I can't move my arms or hands. BUT, I am no longer a walking or wheelchair-bound zombie. I swim and practice water exercises when
weather is warm to build muscle strength. And there are still times when my pain gets
better of me and I still go through emotional ups and downs. And like most conditions, they flare up more often with cold weather, emotional and physical stress, and lack of rest. BUT I am alive today, I am a survivor, and though I may have fibromyalgia, Transverse Myelitis, migraine, disc herniation, and restless leg syndrome - these disorders do NOT have me.
In Closing
Living with my chronic disorders and illness has taught me to be more patient...more loving...more giving. I now share my home with not only my human family, but have adopted several rescue dogs - who I also compliment for adding so much love and compassion to my emotional wellbeing. And so long as there is a purpose on this earth for me to exist, I will attempt to make
most of it. Every hour. Every day.
Living with Chronic Illness & Disorders: Are You a Survivor? Copyright 5/2005 - All Rights Reserved by C. Bailey-Lloyd aka. LadyCamelot

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