Blessings In A Mother's Tears

Written by Monique Rider

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Deborah was not doing well in school and there were so many options available to help her succeed. Again, she was not receptive to anyone’s help and out- patient counseling was not effective. I was constantly fightingrepparttar urge to push my knowledge and ideas on her. Because, after all, “mother knows best”. Instead I tried to be subtle with her – then I would retreat to my bedroom and cry. I struggled between elation – when she was in a good mood, anger - when she wouldn’t speak to me, and hate – when she was swearing at me.

I continued to network and educate myself, remembering to do it for myself and not push it on my daughter. I tried to take care of myself and to not give up my whole life because of this illness. I slowly recognizedrepparttar 131103 positive things about this situation. Like, how it caused me to reprioritize my life and take a stand for what I believed in. I did a lot of soul searching and made some personal decisions that I had been putting off. All of this placed me way outside of my comfort zone and it wasn’t a good feeling. But, like life itself, it’s a process. It’s personal growth.

I actually must thankrepparttar 131104 Lord for this whole situation because it has helped me in so many ways. Things are so much clearer to me now and my path is much more obvious. I am notrepparttar 131105 one withrepparttar 131106 illness but I am going through a personal growth so astounding that I wouldn’t traderepparttar 131107 experience for anything inrepparttar 131108 world. My heart aches for Deborah and each tear I cry represents my love for her. I would like to share my experience with her, make her aware of how I feel and what I’m going through. However, she’s not ready to hear it. I would love to see her go through a similar growth. Maybe she is, in her own way. Or maybe she’ll look back years from now and realize that she gained something from all this. I know my life will be painful for awhile but I will continue to survive. I pray that allrepparttar 131109 pain will be worthrepparttar 131110 gain.

© 2001 By Monique Rider

Monique Rider is a Life Coach and Personal Trainer. She owns Trinity Coaching Services, a company that offers fitness training and personal growth services to clients worldwide. To learn more about Monique please visit her website: or email her at:

"Men in Tights......and garters"

Written by Wonderbra Girl

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I have little problem in seeing a man in a skirt. As a columnist for my school's paper pointed out, logistically, it makes more sense for men to wearrepparttar freer skirts, and letrepparttar 131101 woman wearrepparttar 131102 pants, so to speak. However, if we start wanting men in lingerie, we have to ask ourselves, what next? Tummy tucking pantyhose?

Perhaps this is because I've never had a relationship where I would was inrepparttar 131103 position of trying to make myself sexually appealing, or wantingrepparttar 131104 other person to oblige me. Still, maybe if I was, I could see it. I did find Kevin Costner hot as Robin Hood, in those cute little green leggings....

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